My Thirty-Four Self

My sixteen year old self is driving a van? How did I go from 16 to 34 with two kids and a minivan? It's called life. A few weeks ago, I took a short trip to FL for my Aunts 80th Surprise party. She had no clue I was coming. I'm sure she thought how in the world is she going to get away with two little kids. Well I did. Thanks to my awesome husband. As I sat on the plane, I had time to think. Just me and my thoughts. You can't do much on your phone in airplane mode, so I looked at my notes app. WOW, its been almost a year since I've even thought about doing a blog post. It's hard from going to an independent hard working woman, to a yoga wearing, bun hair do, stay at home mom! You know what, I wouldn't change it for anything in the world. I'm learning we go through phases in life an those phases help prepare us for the future God has planned for us. There are days, I feel overwhelmed, wondering what is Gods plan for my future? Pretty sure, I'm not the only mom who thinks this way. I'm learning everyday, it's ok to be scared, it's ok to feel misunderstood, it's ok to still want to do other things in this life besides, clean up poop diapers, clean boo-boos and have spinach-apple pouch stained clothes (some even in the hair). I believe God has something planned for me. What you ask? I don't know. I am learning more and more everyday what my true passions are in this life. One thing I do know, is we are not alone in this world. We have a Savior who will listen, who will guide us, who will give us strength on days when walking up the stairs one more time to get more diapers may just kill us. As moms, we have the hardest job. It isn't easy, but there are days I cry out to him and know I'm not alone. As I sat on that plane and looked out the window, I realized this world is filled full of opportunity and God will never leave us. He has plans for us if we just listen. Who is listening? I know I am and I'm trying to hear more and more everyday.